What ever the result will be, my “War” will be about to end in the next month. I have been on this phase for almost 5 years, which way longer than I thought. During this period, I was missing around and losing a lot, although I shall gain many stuff.
I think 5 years are enough for people to change themselves dramatically, and which is exactly what I’ve been struggling with. I am happy to be able to be another person, but due to what I missed, I will still have a hard time even after the “War”.
I always can’t help thinking the meaning of what I am doing. Sometimes I think I am totally wrong and I could have a better life if I made another decision in the past than now. Or maybe I would be right all time, and this would be the only way I can choose. Soon I realized thinking this kind of question is meaningless. If only I still have the future, I can have to chance to fix everything, although it would require time.