I made my final decision yesterday. I chose the sophomore girl. Despite the fact it was our first date, she said yes to become my girlfriend.
The reasons why I chose her can be split into two parts. First, we share a lot of core values and hobbies, which will help us to have an easier long term relationship. What’s more important is that we met in daily life, and it was her that approached me first. I can build another relationship through online matching or a marriage agency at any time, but I may never meet someone who really loves me anymore.
Now the hardest part is I have to end the relationship with the other girl. We are still discussing the next date these days. It is really awkward for me to talk about a breakup at this point. She didn’t even know I was dating another woman. It feels like I am already cheating on her.
I was thinking about having two relationships simultaneously. However, after reading some articles, I realized people regard this as a kind of cheating. Having multiple relationships is way more serious than it feels like, being considered intolerable by the majority.
For the other girl and me, the forthcoming pain seems inevitable. I know if I put an end to it now, further damage can be avoided, but I am still hesitating.